yeah u can only experience some "adjectives" for some "nouns" but generally u dont get to read or hear them...
dunno where all did i lose the time when i was not posting my blogs here (yups, surely i was ALIVE all this time) or rather where "i" was lost..
life turned many degrees in between, at 1 time 180 n then 180 again to be back to track n then few more degrees..
i had been in touch with this love of mine "blogging" but more of in reading mode than in writing mode.. one possible reason.. i really started believing that i no longer have thoughts and feelings..
(no use of reading it again, u read it rt the first time..)
even rt now, i started here just coz i had to start and not coz i really got a topic..
the other day, smthng like this happened..
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me: mom, look @ d diligent efforts of those young ones bicycling to destination w/o knowing how big a hand it has in shaping their life's destination.. be it a cold,chilly day or a hot burning day, be it rainy or stormy, be it a normal day or festive day, they just have to reach tuitions in d pursuit of "aim" of getting admission to 1 of those prestigious colleges..
mom (interrupting): beta, tum bhi aise hi jaate the kabhi..
(dear, even u used to go to tuitions that way only)
me: (really :O) arey nahi, i cud never be that sincere (or was i actually sincere.. omg, MEE!!!) (yeah even i went thru that stage..)
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me: sahi hai yaar, just look @ those happy-go-lucky ppl, they r so very much enjoying being here together as if they have been untouched by "worries" of life till the date..
frnd: abey hum b to aise hi masti maarte the.. (even we used to enjoy our times when together with frnds) remember the time when we had just joined the co..
me: yeah (thots: omg, really i too had my best dayz yaar... it was like 'days when i was @home after office' were rare n countable rather than 'days when i was out of home till late nights after office'..)
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me: oh my, so many ppl here.. they really have no other work to do.. poora shehar yahin aa gya kya uth ker (the whole city plunged to this market only)
X: yeah, even ppl like doing shopping and all..
me: what do u mean by "even ppl".. i dont like it.. (thots: hey hold on, what m i saying.. i used to LOVE shopping with my mom or frnds at one time.. :-? really...)
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me: hey hi, what ya doing.. playing guitar.. sahi..
Y: yups, i hv learnt a lot more songs now.. shud i.... (voice drowning..)
me (already left the room, disinterested..): kyaaaaaaa..
(no sound.. i ignored too....)
(thots: hey she was playing guitar!!! matlab GUITAR!!! that wa ur only ambition to learn it in last dayz of college.. ur passion, ur love.. u wud stop whereevr u wud hear it or even see it!!)
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Z: have u painted anything yet on the canvas u got as a gift on b'day??
me: oh yeah.. i forgot i have a blank canvas at home.. neah yaar, that canvas has still not got the luck to be filled by me :P (thots: hey y i dont paint it, how can i forget what i was craving for 6 months back..
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and there is no end to this all... hey that sound is familiar.. is it "scooter" on the road..
or somebody is "laughing".. hain?? laughing.. whats that??
3 comments:
so lost in thoughts.. how can u say ur thoughts/feelings have ended??
rather i would say, they have increased manifold dat now its little difficult to pen them down.. infact even actually to understand them properly.
Strange life..
Too confused, well everyone is. Its like you run away from something, run, run and run, miles away just to find out that the road is CIRCULAR..
Irony :)
@anonymous
thnx for d comments, but my curiosity has surely increased manifold to knw whoz this!!
plz do d favor n tell me..
ohhhhhh anki i never knew u wr so philosophical.. loved reading it.. but hey kya hua.. hope u r bak on track now.. d ever so bubbly, enthusiastic koodti naachti abki manki :)
u r nt so old to think.. haan hum bachpan mein ye karte the.. ab tak to mom dad pe dependent.. apni life to ab shuru hui hai.... Live it :)
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